My wife and I went on a Motorcycle run at the beginning of
April. We had a horrible time getting home because of torrential rain and my
bike broke down. I have a forced air breather on my Heritage and it will not run
in the rain. It was sucking water like a thirsty horse. The bolt that holds my
floorboard and kickstand fell out and then the main bolt to the crash bar fell
out as well. We were soaked and unable to continue. We were forced to get a
hotel room. When we stopped, we ran into a couple that are members of our
ministry. The Wife, who had ridden a sportster to the event (that had no windshield),
had ridden 100 miles in torrential rain as well. All she had was a bandanna on
her face. She was close to hypothermic when she stopped. The others in our
group had baggers and were able to ride on. My wife and I had very little money
for this event, and I had taken a weekend off of work as well; we spent way
past our budget, and then some. When I got home, I found out that I had lost
two large jobs that I thought were solid—about $1000 worth of income. This set
in motion a chain of events that left my wife and I spiraling for weeks. Finally,
we realized that we would have to give it to God and stop worrying about our
situation. Today, I found out that my main source of income might be in jeopardy.
The company that I sell blinds and shutters for may have to shut down. All of
this has happened in a few short weeks. I share this because I want those who
read this to know that I`m not some rich writer spewing platitudes on the
internet—I`m living out my own advice.
Today as I sit on my front porch, the wind is blowing, the
sun is shining, and it`s a beautiful 82 degrees outside. The combination of the
mild temperature and the wind make it a perfect, sleepy day. I haven`t written
here on the blog for quite some time. I`ve been sort of reinventing myself as a
writer. I`m finishing my B.A. in English and I had a tough time last semester;
however, I`m learning my strengths and weaknesses as a writer. I wanted to
write today but I could not muster the energy. Everything I thought about
seemed dull. Then a verse from Proverbs popped into my head because it`s the
verse I`ve been leaning on lately: “Trust in the lord with all thine heart and
lean not to thine own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5).
My wife and I have struggled, as so many others have, in
this weird and dismal economy. In spite of this, our Father never lets us go without.
If we lean on our understanding—the things we see in the natural—we will have
fear, depression, anxiety, and worry; if we lean on Him, on His understanding,
He promises to direct our paths. He says His saints will never beg for bread.
I grew up without a father in my life so it`s hard for me to
trust in others. I had to learn things on my own, for the most part. May 20th
of 2012 I was saved, or rededicated to Christ, in an old chicken house church
in Dahlonega, Ga. I have learned since then to trust in my Heavenly Father. I
try to see Him as my big Daddy in the Heavens. In spite of the fact that I
never had a father, I became a father, and the one thing I know is that I love
my children no matter what. I try to use this analogy to understand how God
sees me. I`m His Child and He loves me, no matter what; however, because He is
Holy, He expects me to live as a follower of His Son Jesus. He knew we weren’t perfect
or He would have never sent a Messiah. Nevertheless, this doesn’t mean that we
are free to sin, it means we are free from sin.
If you have found yourself surrounded by fear lately—study
Proverbs 3:5-6. Use this verse as a meditation, as I have, over a period of
days and let it truly sink into your mind. To those who read this—God bless
you. I hope this helps. SWB
The short of it: Trust yo Daddy in Heaven.
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